Wednesday, June 22, 2011

I Miss Summer Vacation!

My son had his last day of school yesterday and all he kept talking about last night was how great it was to be on summer vacation.  Mind you he’s only 6 and just completed 1st grade but yet he already knows that for the next two and a half months he’s got nothing to worry about except having fun.  I miss those days.  When you get out of school and get a full-time job, you do have vacations but generally it’s a week to ten days.  I’ve never even had 10 straight days off of work for pleasure in my entire duration of working.  While I’ve been on disability for an extended period of time, that is hardly a vacation.  There is no relaxing involved in that scenario.  I long for the old days when you had two straight months of sleeping in and hanging out all day.  What I would give to have a full month off again!

I can’t even imagine taking a full month off.  Don’t get me wrong, I’ve definitely thought about it but when I take vacation for a week I come back to a disaster, can you imagine what you would come back to after a month?  Perhaps next year I should start with two weeks and see how it goes.  The problem is I worry too much about my job and the people I work with.  I work in a small department and when I’m on vacation there is only one person left to do the work of two.  I don’t know why but I can’t relax or enjoy myself when I know that the person I left at work is stressing and cursing me out.  Not to mention that in this economy a job is very important and losing it could be disastrous.  I know my work wouldn’t fire me because I’m taking vacation but I always worry that my co-worker or another person in the company will do a better job than I am while I’m out.  Again, needless worry and stress when I should be having a relaxing time.

Maybe it’s me but it’s time I stop worrying about what’s going on here and enjoy myself.  I have vacation time and it’s time to start using it to my full advantage.  Next year I will take two weeks off in a row and not care what happens here at work.  I have to!  Seeing and hearing my son “brag” about having fun for the next two months last night really got to me.  It’s time to get that summer vacation feeling back again!

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